The Lord has been teaching me about contentment lately. I’ve always know I needed to be content where I was, but I often got a foggy idea of what that meant. “I want to keep pushing forward, Lord. Being content sounds like I’m letting myself become stale and lazy.” That’s far from the truth! Contentment is so much deeper.

Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. – Philippians 4:11

We often tend to compare ourselves to others. We often let fear guide us. We often focus on our goals more than the Lord’s Will. We often put our identity and worth in our success, accomplishments, friends, material possessions, and so forth.

We fail to find our identity in Christ. What does this have to do with contentment?

Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat; neither for the body, what ye shall put on. The life is more than meat, and the body is more than raiment. – Luke 12:22-23

As Christians, we must find contentment in every season of life. When we struggle and weep and fight–we must be content. Being content means trusting the Lord instead of worrying. As Christians, we have power in Christ, and our prayers in the spiritual realm are vital. However, we often bite off more than we can, or should, try to chew. When we add struggles–like comparing ourselves to others or overthinking every single thing–we aren’t being content in God’s plan. We cannot be God. We cannot find contentment in anything on this planet.

We must find contentment in where we are in OUR walk with Christ. Imagine going on a walk with Jesus in flesh and blood and not being content–looking around, wondering if anyone else is walking better than you, wondering where you were going, wondering how much longer you’d have to walk… Crazy, right? So why shouldn’t we be content with Jesus RIGHT NOW?

Wherever you are in life–pray for contentment. When you are fighting hard to move forward through the darkness and cannot stop–pray for contentment. When you’re struggling against demons and the fight just won’t end–pray for contentment in Christ. No matter how difficult life is, there are beautiful things to find. Open your eyes and try to find them.

We’re in His glorified presence, y’all. Why shouldn’t we be content? He’s our best friend and He is always there, even when we are struggling, screaming, crying, fighting, bleeding, failing, fearing… God is there.

Lord, show us the Father, and it sufficeth us. – John 14:8

God bless,

– Ang



A world so small,

a sky so big,

hundreds, thousands, millions of stars,

shining and burning and dancing in the darkness,

a moon staring down at me, whispering,

be still, child;

the Creator that whispered life into the burning stars,

and stretched His hands across the heavens,

formed you.

The breath you breathe

is as powerful

as the hiding sun

and the soul pulsing through your body,

bears more power than a million galaxies.

The moon and stars are proof of His promise,

that we are beloved,

and we are no small thing.


– Angie


I read over 100 books in 2018, and I’ll be sharing my top fifteen favorites of the year in this post… And I’m ready to fangirl. Are you?

ALSO, let’s ignore that graphic, because, ha, no, I didn’t read all those books in 2018. I read like… 3 of them in 2018. But. It looks pretty. And alll my books are packed up right now so I cannot take another photo.






Ahem. Basically, I’ve read the whole Chronicles of Alice and Ivy series, as an alpha/beta (which is why I have yet to leave reviews on any of the books, which will change this year, as I’ll be rereading them). And this is my favorite book from Kelly so far. Scotland? Romance? Sweet characters? Sass? Dogs? (DID I MENTION BENJI *swoon*)

This being said, I want to fight a couple of characters and bury them. I hate so much. I wanna die. Let’s pretend this series ends at this book. =)




Huge thank you to Allison Tebo and Mary for sparking my love for Rosemary Sutcliff! My Mom bought a few of her books for the school year, but The Eagle Of The Ninth wasn’t really required of me to read. I read it, loved it… then found Alli and Mary did, too!

This book hit me hard. The cast was strong, the plot intriguing, and it made me laugh and cry. I mostly related to Esca–his determination and selflessness really impacted me. I especially related to how he cared for Markus since Markus wasn’t entirely able-bodied.




I read this in less than 24 hours and I loved it so very much. It is one of the best classics ever. Just… read it so we can… be speechless together…




This nonfiction book is one of the best books ever. I don’t say that lightly.

This is, as the title says, about a teen’s thoughts on faith through chronic illness–but it is not limited to those who are ill. My Mom has had Chronic Lyme for over 3 years and this book ministered deeply to me. I still find myself recalling things from its pages to keep myself focused. It is very dear to me and I pray you guys read it.




This book is too good, y’all. Sometimes, it reminded me of the movie Maverick. Other times, I was grinning at the monsters, beasts, and hilarity of the characters (yes, it’s normal to grin at werewolf-like beasts).

I really enjoyed this book and can’t wait to read more!




A day might come when I don’t mention how much I love this book. But today is not that day. Rereading this book was like a really big hug. I love it so much.




My mom told me how good this book was. But her words did little to prepare me for how good this book was. This novel opened my eyes to just how much God loves us and how prepared we need to be. God tells us to be ready. Are we?




I was soo excited to get this for Christmas and I read it in one sitting and IT IS SO PRECIOUS, Y’ALL. I loved the sequel story to Dandelion Dust, but I also loved the other stories sooo very much.

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Book review is HERE.

THIS WAS SO CUTE AND FUNNY AND ADORABLE. I LOVED IT. This series is one of my all time favorites. So much hilarity and precious characters.




I read this book in one sitting because I couldn’t believe things could get better than book one? But they did. And the cast blew me away and the emotions were so poignant and the plot was just AHHH. MY HEART. This book deserves a lot of love!




There we have my top ten favorites from 2018! I MANAGED IT, Y’ALL. Because I’m actually a… really picky reader. So picking ten FAVORITES was… interesting.

I’m so excited to see what 2019 brings (actually, I’m already enjoying the books I’ve read so far!). 🙂

God bless,


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Last week, I wrote about having faith when you’re broken. Before continuing, I suggest you read the other post. I shared one line that this post will be about: “It is OK to be broken or scared–as long as we fight on and turn to the Lord and have faith.”

It’s been difficult for me to accept this truth. I’m struggling, and I know my family struggles, too, if not more so (my mom has Chronic Lyme disease. How can I struggle when she’s struggling soo much worse?) Tiny lies I used to believe as a kid have crept back onto me when I wasn’t expecting. So I had to stop and ask myself, “Why am I not OK? And shouldn’t I be OK?”

Let’s talk about when I said how it’s OK to be not OK. Seems a bit contradictory, doesn’t it? After all, the Bible tells us to have faith and be of good courage. But it’s OK to not be OK. It’s OK to struggle. It’s OK to feel lost. It’s OK to feel afraid.


Because Jesus.

Then saith he unto them, My soul is exceeding sorrowful, even unto death: tarry ye here, and watch with me.  And he went a little farther, and fell on his face, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt. – Matthew 26:38-39

Like I mentioned in the previous post, Jesus wept. As the above Scripture adds, he was sorrowful before his death, asking God to pass the cup from Him. Therefore, it is not a sin for us to feel such things. It’s OK for us to feel such pain. In fact, it’s healthy. Let’s be honest–if you bottle your pain up, hide it, lie to yourself… It will only deteriorate your heart.

Notice how Jesus prayed as his heart was heavy. We must do the same. In order to surrender to the Lord and find faith, we must tell Him our fears (He knows them before we do) and give them up. We cannot move on in faith if we are clinging to fears. But giving up fear is not always easy. Sometimes, it is a journey. A painful one. But with God, all things are possible. So have faith when you kneel to pray to God about your fears. He doesn’t see you as less-than when you bear your heart like that.

Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. – Jeremiah 29:12

Is any among you afflicted? let him pray. Is any merry? let him sing psalms. – James 5:13

So, we must have faith in God as we weep. We must not worry. Again, contradictory much? It isn’t. Here’s more Scriptures about having rest and peace in God, because while it is OK to not be OK, God calls us to have faith. Have faith through the pain.

Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, [that] the everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? [there is] no searching of his understanding. – Isaiah 40:28-31

Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. – Matthew 11:28

What about when we’re furious at Him? Or we’re questioning God with all our might, because we have little to no faith in His plan? God is big enough to take that. He will not strike us down or forsake us for our questions. But once we have our breakdown (and we may have many of them, even in close precision. We’re human), we must choose faith. Even trying to muster some faith in God will please Him.

One verse I found comforting is this, “Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom.” Fear not. Those two words again! Let’s look at the latter part… It’s God pleasure to give us the kingdom. Wait. What? How can it be His pleasure when all human nature does is complain, struggle, fail, and sin? Let’s look at the verse before it, “But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you.” (Luke 12:31-32) There it is! God does not require we be perfect, sinless, happy all the time, or ‘OK’. He finds joy in blessing us if we seek His Kingdom!

Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. – Matthew 11:29-30

We can choose faith because our God is loving. He will not forsake us in our weakest hours, but give us rest. He will not curse us if we seek Him, but bless us. He will not forget us, but put a crown on our heads in heaven. He promises so many good things in His Word… And nothing can conquer Him. So have faith, even when this world hurts, even when you’re faith seems small (again, this post has some verses for when faith feels ‘small’!). He is the only thing that’s overcome this world.

Thank you for reading, and God bless you.

– Ang

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Faith isn’t always easy. Actually, maybe it never is. Faith is believing in God, believing in the unseen, but it’s more than that. Deeper.

Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live: And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die. Believest thou this? – John 11:25-26

Faith is believing in God’s Love. If Jesus died for us, suffered for us, weeps with us, rejoices with us–how can we have no faith in Him?

And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you. – Matthew 17:20

If we cannot see something, or see the future, we must have faith that His future for us is good. We often get ideas of what faith must look like. We get goals and think, “OK, God, my life must look like this.” But that isn’t what faith is. Faith isn’t believing what we want will happen. It’s believing that God’s Will is best and it will come to pas, no matter what things Satan–and ourselves!–try to do to stop it. And guess what? The mustard seed parable is pretty important because we cannot believe the lie that our faith, no matter how ‘little’ it may seem, is worthless.

For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed. – Romans 10:11

God says have faith in him. Well, that doesn’t always make us look like bold lions. We can be beaten, bruised, weeping, bloodied, tired (For unto you it is given in the behalf of Christ, not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for his sake. – Philippians 1:29)–you name it, we can look as pathetic as possible. Because the war is hard. Fighting and having faith? It doesn’t mean we will stand tall. It means we have faith that Jesus is our Savior. While we are on our last breath and can’t stand up to keep going, Jesus is our Refuge. When we need help to just keep pushing through mundane days, Jesus is guiding us. So be bold in faith. Be bold in what God promises us. Do not be ashamed of our human weakness–glorify God for being merciful.

Even so faith, if it hath not works, is dead, being alone. – James 2:17

Faith, even if it doesn’t look like much, when it comes from your heart, and you ask the Lord to give you it… It is enough. It is not ever something out of our reach, by the mercy and grace of God!

Jesus saith unto her, Said I not unto thee, that, if thou wouldest believe, thou shouldest see the glory of God? – John 11:40

With faith, we find peace. We must choose when to have faith in the Lord. We may be tempted to have faith in people, ourselves, or other foolish things. Pray. Pray for faith in the Lord and act accordingly. Make a conscious effort to turn your big and little worries or fears to the Lord. Give them to Him! Your prayer might be as simple as, “Lord, I’m really scared/worried about this thing, but I have faith You have a plan. I believe You love me. I believe You are in control. Please, give me peace and guide me.”

It is OK to be broken or scared–as long as we fight on and turn to the Lord and have faith. God is the only One who can give our broken bodies rest, our shattered hearts healing, and our tired mind peace. So have faith.

God bless,