PERFECTION

“No one will even read this. It’s terrible.”

“Someone will.” His voice was gentle, comforting. “Not every heart will need to hear these words, but even if it is just one… You will have glorified the King.”

Glorify the King. That’s what I wanted to do. Why else would I pour and weep over words on paper? Why else would I carve out worlds that the naked eye couldn’t see? Why else would the Creator give me imagination, or give me characters as if the were my heroes and friends?

“You’re words are not meant to pass away…” He picked up the wrinkled wad of paper from the dusty floor, smoothing it out on my desk. “God hasn’t given you a voice just so that you can ignore it because it hurts sometimes.”

“How can I be sure they’re right? What if the words are all wrong?” I asked, forcing my voice to be steady, but that question weighed in my heart like a stone.

“You can’t.” His blue eyes shown. “That’s the beauty of it all. There is not a truly perfect thing on this vast, stunning, complex world… There is no perfect piece of art or work that comes from a human’s hands. Only God is flawless. You’ll never be sure your words are perfect. Perfection does not equal good…” Indicating the paper before me, he smiled one of his warmest smiles. “To glorify God, strive to do so. Don’t strive for perfection.”

I stared at the blank piece of paper worn with wrinkles. “You have a lot of faith in me.”

“I’ve seen your face when you get a new idea, or see something that reminds you of one of your characters…” He crossed his arm against his chest. “You’ve got things to tell… and there will be people that need to hear you. Even if it’s just one.” A smirk. “Though I doubt it’s just one.”

Faith. I had faith in God’s Gift. And I’d glorify Him with it. Even if my words weren’t perfect.

 

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A few years ago, I read a book that briefly touched the subject of how there were a tribe of Native Americans that always left one flaw in their work. Be it a beautiful woven art piece, etc, they always made one mistake. This was done to remind them that only Creator was capable of perfection.

While I’ve forgotten which tribe this was (though I’ll be trying to find the answer!), this has stuck with me for a long time. Why? Because all I ever see is people striving for perfection. We don’t want to give God the honor of being Perfect. We want to achieve perfection ourselves.

And we can’t. We truly can’t. No many how many art classes you take, you won’t be a perfect artist. No matter how many books you write, you won’t be a perfect author. No matter how many times you practice a kata, you won’t be perfect.

God doesn’t want perfection. He wants us to seek Him. Honor Him. We can do that by having a heart for Him, no matter what we do, or how good we’re good at the task. There is beauty in doing so!

God bless,

– Ang

 

HAVE YOU HEARD ABOUT THE INDIAN TRIBE’S TRADITION? ARE YOU A PERFECTIONIST?

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EXCITING UPDATES

I have updates!

 

Exciting updates!

 

Or do I?

 

I DO! This is a ‘what’s going on in Angie’s life and how can she cram that into a fun post’ thing, mixed with important and fun updates! Sounds great, yes, friend?

 

— SIBLING NIGHT OUT!

Last night (Sunday), Tory, Kody, and I went to the movies to see Venom! It was way better than I anticipated and struck some inspiration for Biblical talk. We also dressed for the occasional — all black! — but Kody wore a black guy’s necklace, ha!

I gave Venom 4/5 stars and you can read my review (which doesn’t contain a content guide, since it is PG-13) here: VENOM REVIEW

 

— TRENCH IS OUT.

I bought it today (and stayed up till 12 AM when it first released, ha). It is so beautiful. My Dad listened to some of the songs with me and he really loved them. Twenty One Pilots has meant a great deal to me for over 3 years now and this album did not disappoint. I also will never be over the music video for My Blood.

 

— DRIVING.

And I’m still alive. Ha. My glasses have completely helped my eyes so it doesn’t give me a head ache to drive anymore.

 

— PACKING THINGS.

The update on our house situation is — we have not sold anything yet. But God is going to take care of us! We’re seeking God’s will and trying to be wise in the steps we take. Right now, that includes lots of packing and storage stuff. We’ll be living in 2 RVs and a school bus (which we’ll renovate!) until we move and are able to build another house.

 

— EDITING SEEK!

I have the world’s best betas, y’all. Seriously. My betas have offered helpful critique, kind words, grammar help, and reminded my characters cannot be in two places at once and only have two hands, haha! I kind of expected editing to be a nightmare, but compared to the alpha read, it really has not been as bad as I thought.

 

— SCHOOL.

I like school but let’s just leave it at I do not like having to draw the insides of a dissected worm.

 

— PLANS FOR JUMP.

I’m not doing NaNo this November because I’ll be finishing Seek for publishing. However, this November, I will try to be jotting down notes for JUMP’s revision. I have plans to submit JUMP to a publishing company and, in 2019, will be taking steps to accomplish that goal.

 

— AWAITING OKTOBERFEST.

It’s in one week and I LOVE THE OKTOBERFEST, Y’ALL. Funnel cakes, lots of books to browse through, junk, more junk, shiny things, happy people, silly people, weirdos, slushees, grass to sit in, trees turning golden — all of it and more in one stretch of road! It is fabulous.

 

— I AM OFFERING EDITORIAL SERVICES!

You heard me, friend! I’m now offering editorial services and consulting. You can take a look at the details on my new SERVICES page! I’m eager to work with fellow writers!

 

— EXCITING PROJECT WITH KELLYN ROTH!

In short, we’re putting together a business that offers affordable services to Indie authors! To find out MUCH more, check us out on Facebook! We’re in the works of getting our website up, so I’ll announce that when it happens. 🙂

 

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That’s all for now, y’all! God bless.

– Ang

 

WHAT ARE YOU UP TO?! SEEN ANY GOOD MOVIES? LET’S CHAT!

BETA READ SEEK

The month of September has been a whirlwind so far. I got sick and am still recovering. We’re on the verge of packing our house because we sold house #1 (more on this to come). And, today, 9/11, I fasted for the first time. The fast ran from 6 AM to 6 PM today (I didn’t eat till 7:20 though). During that fast, we prayed for North Carolina — that God will guide hurricane Florence out to sea and have mercy on the US.

September 11th has been sobering today, as well. Our nation changed seventeen years, and it has never been the same. We cannot forget the lives lost and given that day. Remember. And continue to pray for mercy over our nation!

I do have exciting news. Seek is coming to an end sooner than I expected, so beta reader sign ups are OPEN! You can sign up HERE:

I have to run write, so that’s all for now. 😉 Thanks so much and see y’all soon. God bless!

– Ang

 

HOW HAS YOUR SEPTEMBER BEEN? DID YOU SIGN UP, FRIEND?

DEEP WATERS | UPDATES

Last week, I wrote GOD WILL NOT FORSAKE US because God has shown me lots of truths during this year. The past few months have been jammed full of stressful circumstances, decisions, and plans for the future. It can be a struggle not to get bogged down by the disasters and get exhausted from trudging through it all. We’ve been working on our house which is finally on the market again (prayers that God’s will be done and that it sells soon would be greatly appreciated), among a list of other trials that face us.

God tells us to seek Him. Sometimes, that’s as ‘little’ as praying to Him throughout the day, and giving short but heartfelt prayers over things you have no control over. There’s so, so much in life I just can’t control or help — but I can pray. Prayer counts. Praising God for everything is important! Even when we have lists of things to fear or want to run from.

Hard work counts, too. While God wants us to have faith and be still, there are times when we have to be willing to work hard to do His will. My family and I have been doing a lot of working and preparing. When it feel like we’re in deep waters, even if the storm is tossing the waves, with God… we can walk on water. So, take courage, y’all!

Amidst the whirlwind, I’ve been tackling Seek’s final draft. I worked on it during Camp NaNo in July, but didn’t make booming progress. At the start of August, I made a goal of 30,000 words. I’m at 25,000 words on the 21st. Seek’s draft is over 70,000 right now, so I’m getting close to the end! =) I’ll be giving Seek out to beta readers during October (God willing), and while sign ups aren’t open yet (won’t be for a while, ha!), if any of you are interested in telling me you’d like to beta Seek, you can contact/message me beforehand. You can visit Seek’s page for the very rough synopsis which isn’t final yet. 😛 Here’s a quick snippet for you:

SEEK

ELI’S POINT OF VIEW

I shoved my questions aside, focusing on getting Angel out of danger. She didn’t wake or stir in my arms. The kind, loyal Angel was bloody and limp. And it was because of Michelle, who’d grown up with Angel, who’d watched Angel learn to walk, learn to speak… How could someone do this to their family?

Michelle had made her choice. She choice to destroy the family that had raised and loved her. I’d failed to protect Angel once. Not again.

Jake’s gun never left Fahn, though Fahn looked strangely bored. Michelle didn’t make a move but then she snarled at Fahn: “The cops, we need to go! NOW!”

Fahn cocked his head at me and Jake, smirking, stepping to the car. “Excuse us.”

Bang!

 

Well, I think that’s all for today, folks. I have to go get back at tacklin’ life. 😉 What has life been like for you? I’m always here to pray for y’all!

God bless.

– Ang

 

DO YOU WANT TO BETA READ SEEK (EVEN IF IT IS A COUPLE MONTHS EARLY TO ASK… *RUNS OFF*)? HOW HAS YOUR SUMMER BEEN?

GOODBYE JULY | 2018

July is always a full month. There’s the 4th of July, summer going full throttle with chores and ranch work, and among other things, Camp NaNo. We are also working hard to put our house on the market again, so it’s really been hustlin’ around here. 😉 Let’s get right to the post and recap what my July was like!

 

LOVELY LIFE

  • We have a free range pet chicken. If you follow my Instagram, you’ve probably seen videos of her. Basically: when we butchered our meat chickens, we had a few too small to butcher, so we let them go free. Cecilia the Chicken is the last survivor. She lives near the garage and eats her breakfast and dinner with our mares, Sugar Baby and Taloowa.
  • I’m a purple belt now! And got top score of my age group. And KODY IS A THIRD DEGREE BROWN BELT. I AM SO PROUD! He did amazing.

  • Like I said, working on the house to sell it… Which includes painting. 😛

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  • Gardening. So. Many. Tomatoes. Y’all. Ft. Kody’s sunflower…

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  • Painted some. Check out my Facebook and/or Instagram for those photos. 😉
  • Babysitting.
  • Helped a neighbor lady fix a flat tire. Which was a big fiasco… And there were swarms of sweat bees that BITE… But despite the heat and the plague-like bugs, God helped get it done!

 

 

WORLD OF WRITING

The start of 2018, I knew I wanted to make my writing goals for July short and achievable. I was fairly certain life would be very crazy (ha. Surprise, I was correct. 😛 ) and I didn’t want to stress it. While I had intentions of finishing Seek and writing a few short stories, that didn’t quite happen. Seek is coming at a great pace, however! But, let’s recap…

  • I. PUBLISHED. MY. NOVELLA! The Thief, The Damsel, And The Dragon is published! I still cannot believe it’s actually published. God deserves all of the glory — I honestly never could have done it without Him.
  • I won Camp NaNo.  Within the first week of Camp, I upped my original goal of 20,000 words to 30,000 words. I came out of Camp with over 35,000 words written. Most of them were in Seek’s final draft.
  • Seek is not finished, but this Camp, I wrote steadily in it. I also did plotting and sorted some themes and ideas out… It is stronger now! I am very happy with the progress made.
  • I edited and submitted a short story into a competition.
  • I got another story idea and wrote a bunch of snippets for it… It is called Hollow Bones.

I didn’t get much done for HELLFIRE, just a few snippets and scribbled ideas. Nor did I finish the novelette ‘Isaac’. But I’m not bummed. =) I got plenty done!

 

BOOKISH

Four books isn’t bad for Camp, right? 😛

First Light, by Rebecca Stead | 4/5 (more like 3/5 but eh)

Through All Things, by Malachi Cyr | 5/5

The Trump Prophecies, by Mark Taylor | 5/5

Spidermen #2, by Brian Bendis | 2/5

 

MY NOOK

BLOG TOUR: THE THIEF, THE DAMSEL, AND THE DRAGON | INTRODUCTIONS

BLOG TOUR: THE THIEF, THE DAMSEL, AND THE DRAGON| SETTING

BLOG TOUR: THE THIEF, THE DAMSEL, AND THE DRAGON | THEMES

BLOG TOUR: THE THIEF, THE DAMSEL, AND THE DRAGON | RELEASE!

BLOG TOUR: THE THIEF, THE DAMSEL, AND THE DRAGON | PROCESS!

BLOG TOUR: THE THIEF, THE DAMSEL, AND THE DRAGON | FUTURE

BLOG TOUR: THE THIEF, THE DAMSEL, AND THE DRAGON | WINNERS

BOOK SPOTLIGHT, REVIEW, AUTHOR INTERVIEW | THROUGH ALL THINGS by MALACHI CYR

CAMP NANO UPDATE | JULY ’18

BOOK SPOTLIGHT | THE RELUCTANT GODFATHER by ALLISON TEBO

CAMP NANO WEEK THREE | JULY ’18

BLOT TOUR: THE RELUCTANT GODFATHER | CHARACTER INTERVIEW

BOOK SPOTLIGHT | HE’S MAKING DIAMONDS by SARA WILLOUGHBY

 

AUGUST GOALS

  • Vlog.
    • stop laughing at me
  • Drive.
    • *crickets because I can’t drive till we get insurance taken care of and all sooo*
  • Save money.
  • Work with the horses.
    • Mini, our youngest curly appaloosa foal, will be going back to the sanctuary! 🙂 She’s a great girl and will be fantastic as a lead mare in a tribe. (By the way, we don’t keep all the babies from our Lakota curly tribe. So it isn’t like Mini did anything wrong or anything! We just keep the herds and such neat.)
  • Begin 11th grade.
  • Finish writing Seek.
  • Post a short story on my blog. Or something. (‘or something’ is very ominous, is it not?)

 

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That’s all for now, folks! God bless.

– Ang

 

 

HOW DID YOUR JULY GO? TELL ME ONE THING YOU DID THAT YOU LOVED! DID YOU WIN CAMP NANO? ARE YOU EXCITED FOR SCHOOL?