This is going to be a ramble of a post, but this is all from my heart. Hopefully it makes sense, of course. But there’s so much for me to think about and well, when I sat down to write this… I couldn’t stop. The Lord has shown me a lot… This post is me pouring my heart out and listening to what God is telling me. So here goes…
And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.
What is the Truth?
The past few months, my life has sort of gone topsy-turvy. We’ve been trying to get by, praying everyday for a miracle. God has provided, everyday, miracle by miracle. We can’t see the road ahead. We don’t know what the future holds.
I am blind.
I can’t see ahead. I am afraid to see ahead. Because, what will I see? Will I see happiness? Will anything change? Will I lose what I love? Will everything be OK?
I don’t know what the future holds. It rests completely in God’s hands.
I am scared. And I feel ashamed for being afraid. Afraid that the change will just be too big, too empty, too heavy. It feels like things being OK… is just a far away, fairy tale idea. I can’t see it.
What is the Truth?
There is this engulfing darkness, this abyss of lies and fear and doubt. These are not of of God’s spirit. These are the lies of the Dark. Of Satan.
When I feel like nothing I do will be good enough, or amount up, that’s a lie. When I feel like I’m the only one who’s falling behind, that’s a lie. When I feel like I’m on some ultra-desolate island, all by myself, in a huge sea, that’s a lie. When I feel like the whole world will never see me, and never hear me, that’s a lie. When I feel that my voice means nothing, that is a lie.
Satan lies; those thoughts that make weigh our steps down and make us double think ourselves. Make us double think God. Those lies are not true.
So, what’s the Truth?
Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.
Yeshua is the Truth. His Living Word tells us the TRUTH.
“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”
-2 Timothy 1:7
THAT IS THE TRUTH. That is Yahweh’s Word to us. No matter what Satan tries to tell us, to make us believe, no matter how much the Darkness tries to deceive us and break us…. Yahweh is more Powerful. He is Alpha and Omega. He created the heavens and the earth, to the biggest star and the smallest of flowers. Yahweh Elohim created each of us. We are His masterpieces. By Yahweh’s breath in our lungs do we have life. True life.
Yahweh did not give us the spirit of fear, or of doubt, or of anxiety, or anything that makes us scared and doubt His Path. When we feel those things creeping in and exploding inside of us- we have to ask the Lord to remove them, before they grow roots in our souls.
These past few months, my family and I have been struggling under a very big attack from Satan. Obviously, we must be on the right track with God, because the Dark is very, very angry. And very big. But not big enough. Because Yeshua wins. Yahweh gives us power to cast out the spirits that try to destroy us and others. You can read Him telling His disciples this in the Bible.
One chapter of Scripture that hit me while studying recently was Ephesians, 6:10-18:
Put on the whole armor of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the whole armor of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints….
The war is not against flesh and blood. Yahweh tells us that. It is so much bigger than we can imagine, and still, Yahweh tells us the power He gives us to do our part. To fight, to live. To glorify Him. How amazing is that?
That chapter of Scripture is so amazing. When it feels like life is just crumbling, going dark and dead, and we’re scared and just blind…. We cannot forget. We cannot forget what Yeshua has done for us. We cannot forget what Yahweh has told us. When we feel like we’re the only ones speaking out, or the only ones in the vast sea- remember.
Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat. Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it. -Matthew 7:13-14
Alongside this, another chapter of Scripture came to my mind from the Lord… And really got my attention.
Now there are diversities of gifts, but the same Spirit. And there are differences of administrations, but the same Lord. And there are diversities of operations, but it is the same God which worketh all in all….
For to one is given by the Spirit the word of wisdom; to another the word of knowledge by the same Spirit; To another faith by the same Spirit; to another the gifts of healing by the same Spirit; To another the working of miracles; to another prophecy; to another discerning of spirits; to another divers kinds of tongues; to another the interpretation of tongues: But all these worketh that one and the selfsame Spirit, dividing to every man severally as he will.
For as the body is one, and hath many members, and all the members of that one body, being many, are one body: so also is Christ. -1 Corinthians 12:4-14
Yahweh has given each of us a Voice. He gives us power and free-will. You can say whatever you want, it doesn’t have to be the truth. As followers and believers of Yeshua Almighty; our words have power. Everyone’s words have power, whether they believe in God or not. Yahweh gives us power in His name. Power to share the Truth. Power to share the Gospel, Yeshua’s Love, and the One True Way to the Father.
They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth. As thou hast sent me into the world, even so have I also sent them into the world. -John 17:16-18
I’ve been struggling, praying and searching; and Yahweh finally just had to whack me upside the head and remind me of the big, amazing truth I had just forgotten: That Yeshua Messiah gave me a voice. He gave me the ability to stand up. Yahweh showed me that the Dark was trying so hard to suffocate my Voice, make me doubt myself, make me fear the path ahead. Yahweh showed me the Truth. And He will show each of us, through our lives, the Truth. We just have to seek His face and ask Him.
The Truth is Yahweh made each of us so incredibly individual, and the gifts He gave us each are different. Yeshua doesn’t want us to be the same. He doesn’t expect us to. Oh, no. Yeshua’s plan is way more awesome! The Bible tells us in 1 Corinthians 16, that we each have gifts, a soul, and a VOICE…. and that each of God’s followers has a path,a purpose, and a role. No one is the same. Yahweh made each of us unique- and so, our Voices are each unique. How cool is that?! It is truly amazing. This is the Truth that set me free.
When I use my Voice… I shouldn’t be worried about what others will say, or what others won’t say. I shouldn’t be worried about how people will see me. I shouldn’t be worried about making it all perfect. When I use the Voice Yahweh gave me, I will be using it to spread His Love. His Truth. I will use my voice to praise the Lord! To give Him glory! I will use my Voice to obey Him, to speak out for what is right. When I speak, I will be speaking for the Lord. I will be speaking for the Truth. I don’t care who’s on my left, my right, behind, or ahead.
I do not know for sure what lies ahead. I don’t know what God will call me and my family to do. I do know who’s Hands I rest in. So, I shall not fear, because if God is with me, who can be against me? I know who is my Savior, my fortress, my King. And I trust Him to take care of us, and guide us. Yahweh has shown me and given me a new confidence in His Truth- and the Dark cannot remove or hide His Truth. The Light pierces and prevails!
God has given us each a Voice. What will you say?